As a child I cannot remember anyone who demonstrated any affection, and the only concern came from Mrs Phillips, the teacher we had in the last 2 years at Clifton Rd, as she got the headmistress to get my mother to allow me to take 11+, and then go to grammar school. The result of this was ''if you think you're not going to get a job till you're 16, you've 'got another think coming', because you want to be thinking about paying me back for all the sacrifices I've made......'' Despite this, I never thought of my childhood as 'bad' per se, but as different to those of others. Part of the plan of her and the boyfriend (rotten old s*d) was to get me thrown out of G S. and sent to a Secondary Modern, to prevent me from staying at school until 16. To do this, they took my satchel away when I got home, and I got it back in the morning, so I couldn't really do any homework. The Head at KE wasn't daft and the lack of H/work was compared to class work, and the fact that I used to faint in morning Assembly sometimes was also noted. This was because of no tea or breakfast (nothing since last school lunch) I never mentioned boyfriend's existence or the lack of tea, but I did I'd not had breakfast. The result of all this was that B'ham Ed'n were recommended by the Head to send me to a residential school, which was feepaying, and turned out to be a minor 'public school'. It was brilliant, 3 square, plus a light 'supper', massive playing fields with 6 winter sports pitches plus a cricket oval (and cricket squares between pitches) its own woods - it was terrific except for the couple or three dozen snotty nosed types, that I learned to ignore.
Phil's right about love being an instinct, as that is how I later first became aware of ,and experienced it - long after I'd walked out of home.